My New Year's Resolution

Since new year is near, here I go again with my new year's resolution. Well, I guess, it's too early for you to be thinking about it, but for me, it's not. So here I go.

This 2012, I want to fulfill all my plans. Here are the following plans I need to do:

1. Be a CHRISTIAN by heart not just by name.

          Life on earth isn't about what will you become in the future and how successful you are. It's about how you spend every minute of your life being an instrument and servant of our ever loving Father. We need to live as christian. Live like Christ did. 

          Well, I am a christian but I have noticed lately that I have drawn myself far from God. It seems I cannot reach Him anymore or maybe it is I who's refusing and avoiding Him. Living a christian life is not that easy, but I'll see to it that I'll be able to fulfill this. I put this one first on the list because it is our greatest priority as children of God to be His child by deed, by words and by heart. 

2. Be the ideal daughter my parents want.

          I'm not saying that I am the worst daughter, but I'll just say that I do mistakes sometimes. Mistakes that I regret right after doing so. I love my parents so much that there is nothing else I want to see on earth but their faces full of laughter. Well, they are happy, but I want to make them happier. 

          Sometimes, I could feel that I'm a burden to them, well, not to mention that they have to pay for my tuition fee this semester, because I've been suspended with my scholarship. I want to give them a gift, something that they could always cherish forever. Since, I am a gift to them as they say, I need to make them feel that I'm a gift. I really want them to be happy everyday, and I think, just by being a good daughter, I will be able to make them happy. I just hope so. 

3. Be a responsible student. 

          This is the field that I suck the most. I don't hate school I just get a little lazy on studying my lessons and became very hard working mammal on procrastination. That maybe the reason why I fail a subject this semester that leads to the suspension of my scholarship. I need to get good grades today. I can do this. 

4. Try to cut the pride.

          I know I have this pride that drives me to offend someone. I don't want to do such things but I sometimes forgot that what I'm doing is not good anymore. I need stop myself. I sometimes brag things too and I don't like that. It's like a disease that comes to you naturally. It's like a voluntary muscle, it just do what it does without telling it so. I need to cut this!  

5. Less bitterness.

          When I say bitterness, I mean being rude or hot tempered or I don't know. I don't understand it. I sometimes feel being bitter to people whom have not done anything bad to me. Sometimes, i get mad when I see the apartment so messy, (I hate mess by the way, I don't wanna see my stuffs up side down.), I get bitter when others are noisy and are being so childish. I don't know, I just don't understand this feeling. I still need some time to go deeper with myself and investigate the source of this bitterness.

6. Healthy diet.

          Woah! I need to put a lot of work on this. I eat unhealthy foods a lot and I know that it's not good for my body. I need to encourage myself on eating veggies and stop skipping meals. I need a discipline!

7. Be thrifty.

          I spend a lot of money on unimportant stuffs. This year, I want to see a remembrance of me being thrifty. I need to save money. 

8. Less procrastination.

          Woah! There's a lot of self discipline needed for this. I just hope I can do it! AJA!

9. Get enough sleep.

          The longest hour of sleep I get everyday is six hours, not bad huh? But I need eight hours for a proper sleeping. Got to stop procrastinating so that I could sleep early.

10. Have a life!

          Be happy and gay! Be free and expressive! Be myself !